A note To my frightened Inner Child

Fear comes from a place where there is no inner safety. So we try to find secure and safe place outside ourselves. We keep on searching and searching and there is just never enough of what others give us. They feel drained because we keep on pushing and keep on telling them that there is just not enough of that what we receive from them. It is not enough. And it will never be… until we search for safety outside ourselves. There is no safe zone. No magical bubble of love. But believe me, there is a place, where we can be safe and secure… when we just turn back home. Home to ourselves. 

In this kind of situations, I become a mom to my younger self. To this little frightened girl who is screaming out loud that the world will get her and that there is nowhere to hide. I offer her my hug. My nesting place to rest. I build her a nest so warm and fuzzy. I bring her warm cacao and I lay next to her. And I lay there as long as she needs me there. Even thow she won't say. I know she needs me. Cos what she does not say, is exactly what she fears most. So I stay. And I tell her that I am here. It is all she needs to hear. 

The world she sees is the world she is experiencing at that moment. And it is ok. I don't want to take away her world. There is no such things as illusion for her. What she is experiencing is what is real for her. If that is fear, so be it. 

Her world will change. I know it. Mby not in a minute or in an hour. But it will change. And she will sing again and dance and talk with her fluffy dogs, that she loves so much. She will be able to take care of them again… but not now. Now she needs me. And it is ok. It is ok to stop doing everything that I was supposed to do today and just be here with her. Cos this not only means that I care for her and that I accept her current reality… 

but it means That I truly love myself.    

I love you my inner child. I am here. You are safe.
Nayeli