Backpack full of Stuff

DO YOU PAY ATTENTION? 

I watched this amazing movie yesterday. It inspired and triggered me all at the same time. Inspired cos i remembered that this little hurricanes in life somehow bring us closer to ourselves. And triggered cos ... well i guess cos there were and are so many things in my life that I am not paying attention to. 

We are carrying around this heavy backpacks full of stuff. Stuff we do not even need, but we still carry them. Attached not to the things, but to the memories that this things evoke in us.

We carry clothes we dont even like anymore. But we still wear them. We carry around all sort of medicine just in case we might be in pain. As sort of protection if we might be feeling something unpleasant. And we carry books, note-books, kindles, phones, i-pod/pad/pid/psd... just in case we will be bored or feel lonely.

I guess what is really waving us down, is what we allow to control our present moment.    

There is so so many ways how we do not pay attention to what really is. To what is happening and to what we really inexcusably feel.

What would happen if we would?

How would our backpack feel?

What would our journey look like?  

What if this time I dont bring anything with me? What if I go, with an empty backpack willing to pay attention. Willing to learn again to see the world from the perspective of who I am today. Of who I am right now. What if there would be no need to impress anyone, or improve anything or protect myself from what scares me the most - pain, grieving, despair... 

Do I still know how to travel lightly? How to wander and be amazed by the unexpected outcomes? How to celebrate today beyond my plans for tomorrow? Can I remember what does it feel like to be grateful for what is in my life right now even thow I have so many wants and desires for tomorrows future. Am I planting seeds with care and support?   

This is my backpack. 

And I see it now. I see how many things I carry and I understand how this things are distracting me from being here, now, with what is, with what was and with what might be in the future. Mby now I am a bit closer to trowing some stuff out. To leave some things behind. To travel lightly, with no need for secure destination.

But with attention. With reflections, resonance and honesty.   

This is my backpack. And it is also full of ideas, dreams, inspirations, motivations, kindness, laughter, bliss, love, transparency, vulnerability and openness.

What is in your backpack? 

Do you still know how to travel lightly? How to wander and be amazed by the unexpected outcomes?  

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Nayeli Špela