Half way home

Samo predstavljala sem si kako težko je pustiti za seboj ljudi in oditi. Ker ljudje največ pomenijo. Moje življenje naredijo polno. Takšen človek pač sem. In želela sem si, da bi cenila to. Da imam toliko pravih ljudi v svojem življenju in da me imajo radi. In že zdaj cenim. Eno kosilo s svojo družino (seveda sta bila vključena tudi oba kužka), topli objemi moje ljubezni in bilo je dovolj, da sem se malo zlomila.

Zakaj mi je sploh potrebno iti? Kaj si dokazujem? Toliko komplikacij bo, ali si res želim to?

Dvomi v meni, potem pa prižgem mp3 in prvi komad : Half way home J

I used to walk along the opposite side of the road and made others get out of my way
I used to think I could sit and wait for the times 
but they wont come until I meet them halfway

I'm halfway home and I'm on my own
I'm halfway there and I don't care, I don't mind
I plan to leave here after supper time 
that's when traffic is light, all I need is a sign
and I'll be alright. I'll be fine

I used to think that i could just sleep and then I'd dream
And everything it would come to me
Until I woke one day without anything to eat
Lying on the opposite side of the street

I'm halfway home I tried home running with the flow
I'm halfway there. Ain't it funny how everybody seems to care
I planned to get there around supper time their serving up bread and wine
All I needed was a sign and I'll be allright.
I'll be fine.

In to me je pomirilo. Ker to sem si izbrala ravno zaradi teh občutkov. Ker želim spoznati sebe in iti preko strahov, ki me omejujejo. Ker želim postati svobodna, neodvisna. In predvsem zato, ker ko strah mine vem, da je tako prav.


Ne vem kaj me čaka. Ne vem ali bom osamljena ali ne (čeprav že kar nekaj časa prave ljudi kličem k sebi). Ne vem točno kako priti od ene točke do druge. Vem pa kje je najcenejša hrana, da ljudje znajo angleško in da bom živela v res čudoviti deželi v kateri se počutim doma! In vem tudi, da bom imela sebe in kilometre stran ljudi, katerih razdalja ne bo spremenila našega odnosa in ljubezni!


Zaupam!